So I was feeling pretty crappy for the last month or so. My nerves were a bit on the high side and it made me feel anxious. After going to the doctor last week I discovered that I really do have anxiety. So I have been taking medication for it and after just one week of it, I feel amazing. I haven't felt this good since before I gave birth to Evan. I am not all about taking medication, but man does this stuff really work. I don't feel scared or nervous anymore. I feel more alert and aware of what is going on. I really think that I am just functioning better in general. It makes me happy that I am feeling well enough to be the great mom that I always knew I would be. I wake up in the middle of the night to feed Evan and I am actually able to stay awake to feed him and interact with him while he is eating. I wake up in the morning with a smile and look forward to the day that is awaiting Evan and I. I have a whole new outlook on my future and the future of my family. I have a renewed sense of self and my place in this world. I realize now that my anxiety was being masked and that I have had it for a while but I was on such a "baby high" for the first couple of months that it just finally started showing itself. I am glad that I have such a great support system, my family is the best. I couldn't have gotten through these past 3 months without them. I am so excited for what is in store for my family and I can't wait for all of the memories we are going to make. :)
On a totally different note...My baby sister is getting MARRIED tomorrow! I couldn't be happier for her. We have been waiting for this day for her for a long time. Now that it is finally upon us, it is a bit surreal. :) I wish Andrea and Joe all the best. May you have many wonder-filled years together! :) I love you both! :)
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Thursday, June 23, 2011
Wednesday, May 18, 2011
It's been a while...
It has been a while since I posted anything, so I decided I should try while Evan is content at the moment. To fill you all in on the goings on lately, I will start with the beginning of May. Evan had his very first sleepover (on purpose) with my mom and dad so Aaron and I could get a good nights sleep. It was weird. I missed Evan, but knew that I needed the sleep. I had my very first Mother's Day. It was nice. Aaron and I stayed at home for dinner, it is just easier for me to cook because of my special diet. We watched some movies and I think I even went to bed early. :)
I am still doing well with my diet, fluid restriction and remembering to take my medications. My blood pressure is where it should be, and I am maintaining my weight. I really have been doing well, but the other day something happened. All of a sudden I didn't feel right. I got a little light headed and dizzy, so I took my nighttime medication since it was time, and I checked my blood pressure. It was elevated and so was my pulse. I sat down and tried to focus my breathing hoping it would help. I was scared. I thought I was having a relapse. I called the cardiologist who was on-call and he said it wouldn't be a bad idea to go to the ER and get checked out. It is amazing how fast you get seen in the ER when you have a heart condition. We waited 2 minutes at the most and the waiting room was PACKED. After tests and chest x-rays, and blood-work, and seeing a few doctors, I was released. It was deduced that I was having a bit of an anxiety attack. They gave me some Ativan and sent me home. I don't know if it worked that night, because by the time we got home, it was 3 am, so I slept like a baby regardless of what they gave me. Plus, my mom and dad too Evan home with them for the night so he didn't have to stay in the hospital with us. I was given a small Rx for Ativan, but I can only take it at bedtime since it makes me sleepy. I have an appointment with my regular Doctor tomorrow afternoon to follow up. I am hoping she gives me something that I can take for this anxiety that won't hinder my ability to function and be a mom. We'll see how it goes. :)
I am still doing well with my diet, fluid restriction and remembering to take my medications. My blood pressure is where it should be, and I am maintaining my weight. I really have been doing well, but the other day something happened. All of a sudden I didn't feel right. I got a little light headed and dizzy, so I took my nighttime medication since it was time, and I checked my blood pressure. It was elevated and so was my pulse. I sat down and tried to focus my breathing hoping it would help. I was scared. I thought I was having a relapse. I called the cardiologist who was on-call and he said it wouldn't be a bad idea to go to the ER and get checked out. It is amazing how fast you get seen in the ER when you have a heart condition. We waited 2 minutes at the most and the waiting room was PACKED. After tests and chest x-rays, and blood-work, and seeing a few doctors, I was released. It was deduced that I was having a bit of an anxiety attack. They gave me some Ativan and sent me home. I don't know if it worked that night, because by the time we got home, it was 3 am, so I slept like a baby regardless of what they gave me. Plus, my mom and dad too Evan home with them for the night so he didn't have to stay in the hospital with us. I was given a small Rx for Ativan, but I can only take it at bedtime since it makes me sleepy. I have an appointment with my regular Doctor tomorrow afternoon to follow up. I am hoping she gives me something that I can take for this anxiety that won't hinder my ability to function and be a mom. We'll see how it goes. :)
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